Day 1

  Day 1

Another frustrating day, another day in which I question my existence. 

Another day and I don't know what to do. 

I don't understand why I am doing this as well. 

I don't understand anything. 

What am I supposed to do with my life?

Everything seems to be working fine and I am just the odd one out. 

Again, I was reminded that everything is my fault where I was just following what they told me to do. 

I wish I had the courage to escape, the courage to end all of this. 

But, I guess I have to be tortured more and more before my end. 

I don't understand the purpose of my life, the purpose of my existence. 

I am just a burden to everyone. 

I try to ask for help but no one seems to hear me.

Maybe I am just yelling silently, or maybe everyone is deaf when it comes to hearing me. 

Everyone seems to have forgotten and move on and I can't understand why I can't do the same. 

Why everyone is behaving like everything is normal?

Why no one can't see that I am not okay? 

Does no one care for me even that much?

Did anything even happen or was it just my imagination?

Why I can't seem to find the answers I want?

Life has been playing with me for ages, it has ridiculed me again and again and again.

I don't understand why I am still here. 

I need to leave but I can't seem to find a way.

For now.